Random thoughts

Okay, so I was a bit off about when my next appointment will be. I said it was going to be the day before
Thanksgiving, because normally, Thanksgiving is on the last Thursday of the month. But, Thanksgiving is actually the FOURTH Thursday of the month, and this month, there's five Thursdays. My appointment is the last Wednesday of the month, so it will be almost a week after Thanksgiving.

Anyway, I felt the baby move again today! This time, it felt like the baby was hanging out on the right side of my belly, and flipped over or something. It made me feel so giddy and happy! I can't wait until the motions are stronger. Only a little over four weeks until I know the gender! I am counting the days! By then, I should definitely be feeling the baby move a lot stronger.

It seems like the milestones are happening early for me. I started showing a couple weeks before all the websites say I should. Now I've started feeling movement a couple weeks before the websites say I should. But, then again, I already know I'm going to have a big baby. Every woman in my family has had big babies, and at my first ultra sound, the technician said the baby was about a quarter of an inch longer than average. So, I guess that's probably why.

Looking down at my belly is such a strange feeling right now. I'm not used to looking down and seeing my belly. Every time I go to the bathroom, I admire it. When I'm walking, I look down and watch my belly wiggle back and forth with every step. It's really cool! My belly feels so WEIRD! It's like a tightness. It doesn't hurt, it's just very weird. And my whole stomach feels firm now. I like to poke it.

Last night, I almost went to the hospital. I got a really bad stomach ache, and diarrhea, and I was nauseous. I was pretty worried, there for a little while. But every time I went to the bathroom, my stomach felt a little better, and the nausea slowly passed. Around ten, I felt mostly better, so I decided to go to sleep. By the time I got up this morning, I felt completely better, so I am okay. Today, I have been feeling pretty good, if not a little depressed. My emotions have been so off the wall. Depression seems to come and go pretty regularly. I might need to mention that next time I'm at the doctor. But I think I know what it feels like to be bi-polar. The depression is frequently off-set by feeling elated and extra happy. I have the memory of a goldfish right now, so if I've already said some of this, I apologize.

I've also had some pretty crazy dreams. In one dream, I was growing what I can only describe as udders. I was thinking, "Nobody told me this was going to happen." And I went to a doctor, who said, "Oh, that's perfectly normal." In another dream, the baby was born able to walk and talk. In most of my dreams, the baby is a boy, but a few times, it's been a girl. I like the girl dreams. I'd be really happy if I found out it was a girl. But, I have been psyching myself up for it to be a boy, so that I won't be disappointed, either way. I know that when my mom was pregnant with me, she was sure I was going to be a boy, and with both of my brothers, she was convinced she was going to have girls. Anyway, I'm going to leave it there for now. I know I've been jumping from topic to topic. That's my ADD coming out, lol.