Well, here I am, at 24 weeks. It's New Years Eve. My belly is finally big enough that I feel like I look pregnant. I've been waiting for that, because I have wanted to be pregnant for so many years, and now that I am, I want everyone to know it!
My sister-in-law just gave birth to her little girl, and it has made me super eager to see my Lexi. I can't say that I'm looking forward to labor, but everything after that should be fun. Right now, I am most enjoying being able to see my belly jump when she kicks hard enough. She's beginning to reach my ribs every once in a while, but she doesn't kick hard enough for it to hurt yet. It just feels like a tickle-flutter in my lower rib cage. Usually, on the right, which is funny, because in my belly she's usually on the left.
Lately, I've been missing my mommy an extra lot. I can't even tell you how badly I wish she could be with me while I experience all this. I want her to be able to put her hand on my belly and feel her granddaughter kick. I want Lexi to hear her Nina's voice. I especially want my mom to be able to be at the hospital when I'm in labor...but there's just no way. It would take her 11 hours to drive here. Even if she WERE able to leave on the fly as soon as she found out I'm in labor, she would likely not make it here in time. I just know that it is going to be so difficult for me to go through that without my mommy by my side. I will have my mom-in-law, and she is also awesome, but I just don't think there is any replacement for the woman I grew up with. But, there is nothing I can do about this. I will survive, and I know I'll be seeing my mom not long after, because she is saving money to come up and meet her granddaughter. I am going to cry so hard when I finally see my mommy again! It's so hard not to be near her.
Well, anyway, I read this week that all of Lexi's senses are fully developed. She can hear, taste, touch...her eyes are fully developed, but still closed, and the iris has no pigment yet, and if she weren't in amniotic fluid, she would be able to smell. She's officially considered viable, so I guess according to the "pro-choice" crowd, she's finally alive. Well, she's been alive to me from the moment I saw that plus on my pregnancy test. Even more so, from the first time I saw her on ultra sound, and the first time I felt her fluttering around my belly. What's even cooler is that, if she were to be born today, she'd have almost a 50% chance of survival. That's pretty good, for somebody who's only a little more than half way through creating themselves!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Bigger Leaks and Kicks!
So, a week or so ago, I was sitting on my bed, reading facebook, and my arm brushed against my shirt. I was surprised, and wondered at first, what I had spilled on myself. Then it dawned on me. I had not spilled anything. I was leaking! Ever since then, I've been wearing nursing pads, but I have not leaked in that quantity again. Still, that was pretty amazing.
In other good news, I now have two bras that kinda fit. I'd bought one a while back, with room to grow into, and have now over-filled it. It was the only one I had that I could wear. So last week, I went back to the store I'd bought that one at to get another one. Unfortunately, they don't sell bras bigger than the one I'd already over filled, so I had to settle for another in the same size. Without going into too much info, let's just say they sell bigger bras than walmart, and leave it at that. But, at least I have two bras now, that I can wear.
Even better news: Russ was finally able to feel Lexi kick! He didn't realize it was a kick at first, because she's only JUST strong enough to be felt from the outside, and he said it felt more like a wave. But it was definitely a kick! It was really exciting that he was finally able to feel her!
It is so much fun to feel her moving. It brings a smile to my face every time. Well, except when she's kicking my bladder, lol. But it just feels like such a miracle. It's something I've waited so long for, and I couldn't be happier to finally be getting my dream!
In other good news, I now have two bras that kinda fit. I'd bought one a while back, with room to grow into, and have now over-filled it. It was the only one I had that I could wear. So last week, I went back to the store I'd bought that one at to get another one. Unfortunately, they don't sell bras bigger than the one I'd already over filled, so I had to settle for another in the same size. Without going into too much info, let's just say they sell bigger bras than walmart, and leave it at that. But, at least I have two bras now, that I can wear.
Even better news: Russ was finally able to feel Lexi kick! He didn't realize it was a kick at first, because she's only JUST strong enough to be felt from the outside, and he said it felt more like a wave. But it was definitely a kick! It was really exciting that he was finally able to feel her!
It is so much fun to feel her moving. It brings a smile to my face every time. Well, except when she's kicking my bladder, lol. But it just feels like such a miracle. It's something I've waited so long for, and I couldn't be happier to finally be getting my dream!
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Kicks and leaks
I have hit a couple new milestones in the last week. Now, I hope this first one isn't too much info, but my breasts have begun leaking just the tiniest little bit of liquid. It's not enough to stain my bra yet, or anything like that. It's such a small amount, I don't notice it until I get undressed at the end of the day, and I notice that it has dried onto my nipples, and I have to gently scratch it off. A couple of times, I have squeezed gently, just to see some of the liquid bead up, because it makes me feel really excited. I guess that's because, for the first time in my life, my breasts are actually functioning the way they were meant to. That is really exciting to me, and kind of awe inspiring. I've got to say, watching my body shift and change and grow in this way....well, it's all the proof I need that there's a God. It seems incredible to me that my entire body was DESIGNED for this! It just never ceases to amaze me.
Anyway, the second milestone occurred yesterday morning, as I was waiting for Rusty's bus. I was resting my hands on my belly, and Lexi kicked, and I felt it with my hands. It surprised me, and at the same time, made me feel really giddy. Of course, I couldn't go back to sleep after that. I wanted Russ to feel it, but he slept in, and by the time he woke up, she was not being active. We tried again today to get her to kick so he could feel it. He kept his hand on my belly for quite a while, but she was not moving for him. As soon as he'd pull his hand away, she'd start karate chopping me again, and I'd say, "Quick! Put your hand back!" And she'd stop. Go figure. He is being exceptionally patient though. Well, he doesn't really have a choice. :p But we both know that sooner or later, he will be able to feel her moving.
What I really can't wait for, is for her to be big enough and strong enough that we can feel all of her movements through my belly, so that I can let Rusty feel her moving. Rusty is quite eager to be able to interact with her. He puts his ear on my belly trying to hear her. I keep telling him, "You probably won't hear anything yet. But if you talk to my belly, she can hear you." So, for now, he is settling for telling my belly good morning and good night, and occasionally, giving my belly a kiss. He is going to be such a wonderful older brother!
Anyway, the second milestone occurred yesterday morning, as I was waiting for Rusty's bus. I was resting my hands on my belly, and Lexi kicked, and I felt it with my hands. It surprised me, and at the same time, made me feel really giddy. Of course, I couldn't go back to sleep after that. I wanted Russ to feel it, but he slept in, and by the time he woke up, she was not being active. We tried again today to get her to kick so he could feel it. He kept his hand on my belly for quite a while, but she was not moving for him. As soon as he'd pull his hand away, she'd start karate chopping me again, and I'd say, "Quick! Put your hand back!" And she'd stop. Go figure. He is being exceptionally patient though. Well, he doesn't really have a choice. :p But we both know that sooner or later, he will be able to feel her moving.
What I really can't wait for, is for her to be big enough and strong enough that we can feel all of her movements through my belly, so that I can let Rusty feel her moving. Rusty is quite eager to be able to interact with her. He puts his ear on my belly trying to hear her. I keep telling him, "You probably won't hear anything yet. But if you talk to my belly, she can hear you." So, for now, he is settling for telling my belly good morning and good night, and occasionally, giving my belly a kiss. He is going to be such a wonderful older brother!
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