Well, here I am, at 24 weeks. It's New Years Eve. My belly is finally big enough that I feel like I look pregnant. I've been waiting for that, because I have wanted to be pregnant for so many years, and now that I am, I want everyone to know it!
My sister-in-law just gave birth to her little girl, and it has made me super eager to see my Lexi. I can't say that I'm looking forward to labor, but everything after that should be fun. Right now, I am most enjoying being able to see my belly jump when she kicks hard enough. She's beginning to reach my ribs every once in a while, but she doesn't kick hard enough for it to hurt yet. It just feels like a tickle-flutter in my lower rib cage. Usually, on the right, which is funny, because in my belly she's usually on the left.
Lately, I've been missing my mommy an extra lot. I can't even tell you how badly I wish she could be with me while I experience all this. I want her to be able to put her hand on my belly and feel her granddaughter kick. I want Lexi to hear her Nina's voice. I especially want my mom to be able to be at the hospital when I'm in labor...but there's just no way. It would take her 11 hours to drive here. Even if she WERE able to leave on the fly as soon as she found out I'm in labor, she would likely not make it here in time. I just know that it is going to be so difficult for me to go through that without my mommy by my side. I will have my mom-in-law, and she is also awesome, but I just don't think there is any replacement for the woman I grew up with. But, there is nothing I can do about this. I will survive, and I know I'll be seeing my mom not long after, because she is saving money to come up and meet her granddaughter. I am going to cry so hard when I finally see my mommy again! It's so hard not to be near her.
Well, anyway, I read this week that all of Lexi's senses are fully developed. She can hear, taste, touch...her eyes are fully developed, but still closed, and the iris has no pigment yet, and if she weren't in amniotic fluid, she would be able to smell. She's officially considered viable, so I guess according to the "pro-choice" crowd, she's finally alive. Well, she's been alive to me from the moment I saw that plus on my pregnancy test. Even more so, from the first time I saw her on ultra sound, and the first time I felt her fluttering around my belly. What's even cooler is that, if she were to be born today, she'd have almost a 50% chance of survival. That's pretty good, for somebody who's only a little more than half way through creating themselves!
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